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Saturday, July 31, 2010

Just did my CIP at MINDS Katong CC.. It was rather fun to try teaching my trainee, and laugh over some people's apparent discomfort xP No offense, you people did well for a start ^^ What I've learnt from this session is to take studies seriously.. No link right? Continue reading.

"Some people want to learn but just cant learn. Isn't that sad? You should cherish the fact that you can learn at school." -Mr Chan

Sometimes its weird that when you think your life couldn't have sucked more and someone just says that, making you ponder about what others cant do what you can do. Even the littlest thing like the brushing of teeth, how to wash your own utensils and concentrate in a lesson for 40 minutes, the kids there cant do. And some of them are older than me by ALOT. Yes, ALOT. I thought Shu Ting was like younger than me, but I just heard from one of the trainers that she's 32 YEARS OLD.. What a BIG difference.

I dont know, maybe I should just stop complaining about my misfortunes, like why I didnt get to go for this, why I dint get to do that etc. Maybe its like what Liangzhi, Iris and the other ALIVE members say, its God's will. Just concentrate on my studies, Band, Careforce, CIP, family, friends and guitar. Just wait til I master these first and then "WORLD, HERE I COME TO CONQUER YOU BIT BY BIT."

Somehow I find that some people just makes me feel that I want to be just like them. And its weird because sometimes, for all you know they want to be just like me too, in a way. What a weird thing.

mixed feelings
Kei

catch me if you dare{11:37 PM}
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Tuesday, July 27, 2010

how can you be so perfect in your own way? everything that you do, its like as if its carefully thought out, like its natural to you. it might seem small, but what you probably didnt realise that it made such a deep impression in me.

such a selfless act.

Kei

catch me if you dare{10:42 PM}
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Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Sometimes i wonder if meeting you was a gift from God himself.

-Kei

catch me if you dare{10:07 PM}
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Saturday, July 3, 2010

Im trying so hard, yet you dont give me a sign. I pray for signs, signs that you never abandoned me, signs that you are there. Why cant I see you for who you are? Am I still not good enough at opening up? To you, to the rest of the world?

I dont know, should i trust you?

Kei *emo-ing*

catch me if you dare{10:48 PM}
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Over The Wall

Went to see my bro's drama concert. Initially i dint understand the play, but as it progressed, it bacame clearer to me. there's Breakthrough and Over The Wall
, i guess i'll start with Breakthrough first ^^

Breakthrough is about some guy who's different from the rest of the people (i dont know how is he different but he does things differently). Yup he's easily recognisable cos:
1. he has no partner to "play" or cooperate with a.k.a. he's always left out
2. his actions are the mirror opposite from the other characters
3. whatever he says, the other characters stop and stare at him or "boo~" him

He tries to fit in, but he never does. The other characters call him a "loser" and he gets depressed and frustrated. Its like portraying himself as breaking through an invisible "wall" cos at the end, he tries to run through a wall of people and they push him back onto the ground. at the end he asks " When can I break through?" in a lonely voice.

Somehow, seeing that poor guy reminds him of me, always trying to fit in, but never does. dont tell me that im lying, cos im not. Its like I'm living in the same reality, but a different dimension. One that most certainly doesnt have me. In some areas i guess.

Over The Wall is about people living at one side of the Wall. No one knows how the Wall got there, where it starts and where it ends. There's a lot of questions about this Wall, but the biggest one i guess would be "What's on the OTHER side of the Wall?" But no one bothers to question it, everyone goes about their daily business without worrying about the Wall too much. Some makes "scientific" speeches to explain the Wall, some "worships" it
Until a child is born and as he grows up, he questions about "What's on the OTHER side of the Wall?". He gets scolded by his parents for questioning it, when he grows up he gets outcasted by people for asking this question. They simply think that its a horror for him to asking and everyone jeers, laughs at him and talks behind his back. Because of this, he lost everything soon after, his wife, children etcetc. He tries to see a shrink, doctor etc. but he just cant find out whats wrong. When he grows old, he cant take it anymore and so, he builds the greatest invention of all times, a catapult. He then catapults himself over the Wall, and nothing is heard of him ever again..

Sometimes i wonder if having an insatiable amount of curiousity is really bad. Well, you cant blame someone thinking about questions that probably couldnt be answered in a lifetime unless he or she meets God and ask for an explanation..
Kinda makes me think whether i should stop thinking about deep questions that no one can answer unless they get into the same rut as me

Overall, its a great experience watching this. Hah i bet lit students would put up better explanations then me, but really, its my thoughts.

Going through so much stuff in these few weeks, having mixed feelings. Excitement at NBC in less than one week's time, nervous at NBC coming up, happy that im sorta growing closer to my band juniors, sadness that my 15 year old life has passed by half and i already have so much regrets.. I promise i'll study hard, i promise that im going to be a better senior now, i promise that i'll try double hard at unleashing my abilities, i promise that i will not make myself regret..

My empty promises to myself.. *goes off to emo*

Kei

catch me if you dare{10:05 PM}
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KEI~
Bounced into the world on 14.01
A born atheist
Being a lovable, warm, friendly zodiac DOG
A Capricorn who has a Saggitarian personality
307'10 Nanhuarian
6B '07 Fairsian
PROUD TO BE...
(1) the one and only tenor saxo player in sec3 NHSB
(2) the serious ASL and instrument QM in NHSB too
(3) a level head EXCO of CAREFORCE
(4) a grade 6 classical guitar player
(5) a member of YI ALIVE

wishlist
*A band of good friends to be there for me
*people who loves me for who I am
*A good acoustic
*To find what i have been searching for so long
*Memories that can be kept
*To never be tied down

links towards other worlds and beyond

Music~

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

memories

February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
June 2010
July 2010
September 2010
October 2010

creds

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programme: Photoshop 7.0
brushes: 1 2 3
special thanks: tabby :D